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reminding myself over and over "just because i don't have the support doesn't mean i don't need the support". reminding myself over and over that support needs aren't necessarily support haves. it doesn't mean i have lower support needs than i say, it means my support needs aren't being met
autism moment when one of primary interests is game that still get regularly updated because is very very incomplete (not even out of beta), and know this very very well and have know this since started playing, and yet still get immediately overstimmed overwhelmed and very nearly have meltdown when it updates because brain comforted by game we know, and game we know changed and change is bad bad bad :'3
okok i have a plan to try and transfer our AAC stuff from our tablet to our phone! our phone is with us all the time so it'll be easier to keep track of... luckily it's an app that can go on both our tablet AND our phone, we just hope that we don't have to pay a second time for the premium version 3:
oh! am experience (rather late but that's ok! it happens :]) autistic regression. feel a little better about struggles now. might keep losing skills but will survive one way or other. love and peace on planet autism :]
yknow with how many jokes we always made about how our gatekeeper loves to adopt wayward children, i Really should have expected this outcome.
(and it happened because of a dream?? a Dream made it so my syblings are living in a giant clocktower that's connected via magic doors to 🌫️'s owner/paramour's shop/home and to our gatekeeper's/my new dad's cabin? and to basically everywhere important in the until-now primary sidesystem's headspace and the parent sidesystem's gateway???? Whar)
most nervous about with communication difficulty is lose ability to write stories... write stories is favorite way to express ourselves! not want to lose that specifically 3:
can make ourselves still use good-ish grammar when doing okay and when writing. don't know what about writing stories make it easier than when talking candidly. just is easier. maybe helps that not talking to other people and story write just for selves? maybe is because familiar? just happy still able to write stories for now.
read own old stories also easiest way self-regulate when not have access to audio. because is familiar and almost always involve special interest (because write fanfiction of special interest). read own fanfiction more regulating than read original source material!
have been write stories since elementary school. elementary school stories not very good, but have got better over time, make stories better for self. not want lose story writing, because if lose story writing (good for expressing self, get out ideas), also lose story reading (best silent self regulation). even if have old stories to read, always want new ones to keep fresh, and more stories have, more better regulation, ability to regulate for much longer, have more choice.
hope not lose write stories even if lose all else...
ehehehehe >:3
